Good to know I can make myself smile at least. Woke up this morning like 1,000,000ft deep into my feelings. I just figured that out of all the 7 billion people in the world, I probably was not the only person feeling this way so I said to myself; "why not write something to make anyone who stumbles upon this feel better?"
You have probably heard these phrases:
When life throws you lemons, make lemonade.
When life shows you pepper, make pepper soup.
When life pours you sand sand, make sandwiches.
Say these to me at the wrong time and I will probably insult your life but the truth is that they carry one simple message. Quitting.Is.Not.An.Option. To be honest, on most days, I feel like I haven't yet found purpose. On some other days, I just feel like God has forgotten me. On a few more days, I just feel like I am floating...not paddling, not refueling, not restrategizing, just in the middle of the Bermuda triangle waters, in a gaddem dilapidated banana boat, floating. (I don't care if there is no place like that.) On this particular day, I was frustrated to the point of suicide. Only thing I pride myself about that day is the fact that i made up my mind to make beautiful patterns on the wall out of the blood from my slit wrist...I still thought of art. lol. I know you must be thinking I am a psychotic psychopath right now. Aaaanyway, If you add up all these days of swinging really low, I probably get like one or two days of calm and intrinsic satisfaction in a month. Very very pathetic...I know.
I know we all reach the breaking point in our lives but here are a few truths that I have overtime trained my mind to understand.(sorry I meant still training my mind to understand.)
Someone out there has it worse.
I am not saying be happy that you are better than somebody, I am saying be thankful for the things that are going good. You have life. If you have the mental capacity to process your problems, it means that you are not brain dead lying on one Grey's Anatomy like bed waiting for your organs to be put in a bank.
This Too Shall Pass.
A friend of mine uses a particular phrase that goes "it's not the worst of things". Think back in your life when a situation seemed like nothing could get any worse. Did you not make it out? Did you die?
The same way those past issues worked themselves out, this current situation will pass.
One Day at a Time.
I have this principle called the "dawn to dusk". No matter how bad a problem is, night will still come. This is somewhat an escapist method but who is really keeping tabs? Sometimes, we need to escape from it all. If doing so mentally will help you get through, do it. take every day as it comes and add your quota to the betterment of your situation.
There is a God and you are not him.Contrary to my one-off beliefs, there is a God. Even if you weren't born into religion, sit down and think of how the earth came to be... let me know when you get confused. Now say with me, There.Is.A.God. I doubt that He would allow you be the winning sperm,the unaborted foetus or the child that did not die at birth if He did not have a definite plan. The Bible says in Jeremiah 29:11"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
This same Bible tells us that God cannot lie so can you stop calling God a liar and let him iron the creases of your life?
Let me not bore you any further. Make sure your conscience is healthy, stay true to what you believe in and trust me, the much anticipated change will come. When there is life, there is hope. Do not despair. Keep holding on.
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