Many people say I am too hard on myself but if you ask me, I'll say I haven't been hard enough. If there is one thing that I know has caused me tons of regret and sleepless nights filled with tears, indiscipline will be it. Here is an instance and infact the cause for deep reflection. I have no reason whatsoever for having not posted anything on the blog for over a week. I mean, I had a computer available, internet, topics to rant and bant about and I also had AMPLE time. Infact, I have the Blogger app on my phone which means I can as well write while I am on the bus or taking a dump but one thing I lacked in all this bountifulness was discipline.
In my words, indiscipline is the disregard for time, opportunity, truth and consequence. It is the disease that strikes your intrinsic motivation to do positive things, mostly when your mind believes there is no immediate or befitting reward. Indiscipline over time, creeps up on the super important things in your life and most of the time, helps you make a big mess of of it.
I personally believe that indiscipline is on the board of trustees where self destruction is concerned. Did I also mention that it applauds all the harmful things in your life? If we are being honest, Indiscipline is the reason why you failed that exam. Why you went late for that life changing job interview. Why you cannot quit smoking that cigarette. Why you are engaging in unprotected casual sex. Why you are even engaging in the sex at all outside the tenets of marriage. Why you are cheating on your spouse or partner. Why that addiction has a hold on you. Why you haven't engaged yourself faith wise.Why that business idea has still not materialized. In encapsulation, indiscipline is the thin line between wealth and poverty. You sure know that I do not mean that in just monetary terms. It can cause you physical, financial, emotional, spiritual and psychological penury.
I cannot give actual tips on how to overcome indiscipline as I am neck deep in its decadence but I know there is no better joy than the identification of a problem. One thing I intend to spend the next few weeks doing is training my mind. We need to let our mind know that although it is the powerhouse of a human being, it can still be controlled.
Place a premium on everything that needs to be done and do it as if you will get paid for it. Constantly remind yourself of the harsh consequences that await you at the end of your long vacay with indiscipline. Just maybe at the end of the day, there will be visible progress in your attitude towards situations, people and life in general. One other thing, seek spiritual guidance from whatever or whoever you believe in. I shall leave you now as I have so many things to check off my "indiscipline list".
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